Being lefthanded

My  daughter is really interested with  lefthanded people ... I don't know  why. Almost every day there will be a story to tell about lefthanded  from  her. "Mak, Tomok  is lefthanded", "Mak, my friend is lefthanded".... and something  that make she is more exicited is that her mother is lefthanded... I don't know whether because of me, who is born as lefthanded or something else ..but  she just love discussing about lefthanded .... she is righthanded...same goes to her little brother ...

Last year  my younger sister gave birth to her daughter  who has the same date as me ..24th May..  I've told  her .... wow! this is good because now I can celebrate  birthday together with her daugther ... and we do celebrate together  this year.

Last year in my office we have  4 staffs that share the same birthday as me.., my boss, my SO2 Koord, my programmer and me. 2 are righthanded and  2 are lefthanded ..... and what a coincedence
the righthanded persons are so quiet just like  there is  gold in their mouth and very kind while  the lefthanded ones ... ayooo  love talking, bubly .... and very the loyar buruk ... it is me and my SO2 Koord ...and now there  on 2 lefts ... one lefthanded and one righthanded ....  the other 2 have been posted to other units.

My younger sister is quite worry  if her daughter is lefthanded because I've told her if she is, then probably she will has an attitude and character like  me...which  is what she is afraid of ... hehehe what to do? ok what ... being lefthanded..mind u, I eat  nasi use my right hand but  holding the kuih-muih ..sorry  still using  lefthand... can't help it actually or it is just an excuse... whatever

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Future Planning

Yeah I know I am 43 years old ... and I am old woman ... but there is no harm done if  I still want to make plan for my future. Don't say .... you should concerntrate on religious ... come on....  I have kids to educate them and to make sure they can survive in this world.

Then you all will say ... You have your husband  and that is his responsibility ... I know, I know ...no need to tell me many times ... I know ..it is his responsibility ... but why not and it is nothing wrong if I want to ease the burden. He is working hard for us now. I do really appreciate and  love him ... don't know whether there is another guy  who can replace him and  there is no other girl  that can replace me ... that is what I thought. I think we have been made for each other .... and  I cherish every moment  that  we are spending together. I LOVE YOU   MY HUSBAND ...

As for me ...an IT officer ..so called ..but there is a lot of things about IT  that need to be learn. For now, my task is spesific on system development ... and  I love that but  this  cute things ... always make  my brain  is going to crack .... almost  every day there will be new things  that need to be attend to and to be discover... what a life.

I have promised my staffs to  bake them some brownies ...but I broke my promise, last night .. I have spent time with my kids and my mother in law watching Malay movies. Now I've got to admit ...most  of  Malay movies are good and have the quality that I have been looking for. But there are also stupid  movies like Toyol and  Bekas Isteri-Isteriku Gangster ... what a heck .... why I say so .. think yourself ... what it is.

I am 43 years old

Well on 24th of May .... I've celebrated my 43rd years of age. How time fly fast. Still  have a lot of  mission, ambition, dream and whatsoever to fulfill. One of it is communicating and writing in English. ... from the aged of 7, I've been introduced to this language ..but heck  ...still tak pandai pandai .... do not blame it on the rain.

During  my  teenage yeras ... I've been introduced to  the series of  Sweet Dreams ans Mills and Boons novels ... how  I love to read them and  I could finish 5 novels in a day ....

After that ... when I am married ...my husband  bought novels wrote by Steve Martin, Jeffery Archer  n Stephen King ... I also bought self improvement  book .... but lately ..I think  these few years ..I can't remember when is the last time I bought English book and What is the title  of the book. Oh my English .... the fault is mine and not  anyone else.

So  this year .. the mission is to  sit for IELTS exam and have a very good band ... apa macam?

What i'm going to do today

Feeling so lazy ... am I saying it right.  Usually wake up at 0530hrs every working days but today .... lazy syndrome is effecting me .. I woke up at 0645hrs .... so what  can I do .....the planning to  reach office  before 0700hrs and  jog  before start  my work  is go down to the drain. But I have done a good thing... sending Ikmal  to school and he loved it... mmmm  I'm going to get home early today.

Tomorrow is my birthday ...but  I do not got the time to rest yet .... my katak hijau ( my car) need to be sent for service at  Honda Glenmarie at 0900hrs, the aircond technicians will coming to repair  aircond at Ain's bedroom, go to Jakell Shah Alam ... buying some curtains and cloth for Hari Raya ...they have Hari Raya Sale right now. My nephews whom renting our apartment at Mutiara Anggerik, Shah Alam ask  me to  change the curtains for middle room because  it is quite old ...My husband and I have went to one shop near to our home ... and planning to by  7 metres of curtain cloth to replace that  old curtain. The price is RM345  for the whole 7 metres ...mak oiii !!! luckily the cloth is not been cut yet, if not lari budget ... I'm just planned to spend less than RM100 for the curtains (seems like I am stingy right? ... I'm going to sew it myself ..just a simple French pleat.. but to spend RM345 for just a window  that has 3 panel windows ..oh my not me.... I could take it if it is for sliding door with  3 panel doors).

Then I've suggested to my husband to go to Jakell..... if the  price is not beyond our budget ...then we go to Nagoya. Luckily when we reached Jakel, they are on sale ....seronoknya ..unlucky for me ... do not bring  extra money to spend. So  tomorrow is the day for us to spend on curtains and cloths. We r going to take my mother in law with us because  when she knew that we went to Jakel ..she said ' kenapa tak cakap?' Heehehe  .. my mother in law is just around the corner  dengan Jakel ni ...but  she got no one to accompanying her to go there.

The curtain that we have bought doesn't has enough width length ....kedut for the French pleat tak cantik ... so  I'm going to use that new curtain as the  curtain for door between our  living hall and kitchen. We have install  an aircond in our living room ...so this curtain will work good as  halangan for  udara  sejuk aircond pergi  ke dapur.

So my plan is I'm going to buy curtains for my sliding door at  living room, for my bedroom, for budak-budak room and maybe bibik's room too. Some cloth for my  comforter ....got 2 comforters that need to be changed to new look. We'll see.

What a day ...

Today ..... I really feel demoralise, feeling so down .... I do not know what happen but  deep down I think  I am helpless ..... I feel that I am useless and  now  I do feel there is no reason for me to stay in the service  if it is just for the sake  of  working for 8 to 5.

This year is going to be my 21 years of service. I know  I have been staying long  in the service and  it is now the best time for me to think  about retiring and I think  I will go for that. Next week  on the 24th of May it is  going to be my  43rd  birthday.  Do I have to admit that I am already old? Do I have to admit that  there no any way  I can excel in my career or service? Do I have to admit that now I can consider myself as  'kain buruk'? I don't know.

What I can say I still want to give my service to my nation, I love what I'm doing now but  I hate it when  what I'm doing now is work, work, work ... or  I am not smart enough  to  attend short courses overseas ....yeah maybe because I am female officer ... and there is nothing  that can  be proud of  as a female officer. Nothing... WANITA  TIADA KARISMA  CIRI-CIRI  PEMIMPIN YANG BOLEH DIKETENGAHKAN KE PERINGKAT LEBIH TINGGI....what is happening now.

Yeah, I know  I am not the kind of  female officer that the organization can be proud of. I know I am just  like a stone not a diamond in the service. I don't know. I don't want to stay in the service just  for the  matter to work ... to got  every month pay .... I want to do more to my  country ....

it is true that  when  that is the words from  our big boss .... we the ladies  should  think hard ... who  we are and  what  is our aim ...but no .... nobody want to discuss... so let it be .... i cannot join them, so i  leave them.

Now its the time for me to think about  another  career, 21 years  I am  in the service, I cherish  every moment .....mmm now what to do ...

I am not happy with myself because my English is so teruk. When I read  blogs of  Annie, Helen, Mummy Rokiah and daughter of A.Samad Ismail.....I had realised my English is very poor .... don't blame it to the rain, don't blame it to others. That is my own fault ... I never serious in doing what ever things to.

Success ..success ....success

Salam,

Hehehe ..it is not really much actually  but  for me  it is really something big and  maybe there will  be someone who will roll on the floor laughing at me.

All this while I  have abandoned my blog .... there is no reason for me to did that but the laziness, the strength is not there ... my blog is left  and  has a lot of habuk to be cleaned.

I had sat for the ADEFLPS test  in order for me to sit for IELTS test ... it is consider prerequisite for  IELTS test. I have done poorly and I myself  could not believe my result. After  a few of discussions with my  husband and being laughed at by my daughter (she said that I'm talking manglish, well  that is kids nowadays ...). My husband told me that  I have done lots of grammartical errors, preposition errors and for him to mend this ... I need to practice my Englih ... either  speaking, listening and writing.

And from now on, I am going to use the  blog as  my medium  for me to learn English. So  if  you all notice that  I  make  English language mistake .. please correct  me because  learning  with gurus is like learning  ilmu sesat lah .

Bye for now, need to  prepare the meeting room for discussion with  MRCB, HRMIS team, SISPA team and us .... hopefully  everything turns out well.

Please ALLAH  give me strength and power  to  walk through this  path of life ... I know  that I have made lot of  mistakes but please  lead me the way so I can be someone that  YOU can be proud of. Ameen.